20
Sep
2014

dr-kevin-jeung:

[Kevin looked at Kieran, noticing how much calmer the man seemed to be and silently hoped he would be asleep soon.] Exactly how you explained. Except I was taking men home so much, it was beginning to disrupt their revenue somewhat. [He said with a soft shrug. Honestly, Kevin felt they had been a bit harder on him than they would have on someone else. But they had never been very fond of Kevin in the first place for all the trouble he had and could still cause.] I’ve never rented because I do not wish to put money into this system. I want to help you all, but helping to fund all of this would go against it. [He explained, shaking his head slowly as he talked.] But I would rent you for however long you want. This is to help you, to keep you safe. 

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((Kieran listened, taking in what the man was saying it caused a small smile to grow on his face.)) So you’re telling me you disrupted the economic growth of this city? Well, Kevin, I have to say you are one hell of an activist. ((He joked, chuckling softly before resting his head against the man’s shoulder once more.)) I do understand your need for not paying for a claiming nor a rental. But, honestly, wouldn’t it be best to pay for a slave so you know they’re safe? I don’t believe money will fix all issues because if it did, Bernard wouldn’t currently be in his situation. But, to save a life, it’s priceless. I don’t believe I can be as submissive as I have been before…because I don’t want to keep coming back here anymore. I want out, Kevin. And you know me better than anyone else in this building. I’ve never been one to fight being in here but as of late, I want to be in a bed and sharing it with a man I know will show me a world that I never thought possible. And that world, Kevin, is freedom.

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20
Sep
2014

dr-kevin-jeung:

[He smirked faintly and shook his head slowly, knowing Kieran was smart enough to figure out what happened on his own.] Suspension? For normal cases, I suppose. But I’ve been banned from it altogether. [He said, looking back to Kieran.] Yes, I would. I have yet to rent a slave. [He added, sharing that small tidbit of information with him.]

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Why’ve you been banned? ((He asked, leaning against Kevin still as he looked into his eyes.)) How come you haven’t rented? Has no one appealed to you? Or is it because of your morals that you have? I know how you feel about the slaves and Masters, Kevin. I can it in your actions towards us. If you do rent me, though, how long would it be?

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20
Sep
2014

dr-kevin-jeung:

[He sighs softly, still keeping his arms around Kieran. Kevin didn’t want anyone to worry over him, but he was smart enough to realize he had no power over that sort of thing But bickering with Kieran wasn’t going to help anyone, so he left the conversation where it was.] I’m actually not allowed to do the twenty-four hour one any longer…

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((Hearing how Kevin wasn’t allowed to do the twenty-four hour trial, he looked to him with a puzzled look.)) You took too many slaves, didn’t you? From what I know about the laws, excessive use of the twenty-four hour rentals results in suspension. So…I’d assume you’d have to rent me, is that correct?

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20
Sep
2014

Always On My Mind // Chase & Kieran

rutherfordchase:

Kieran,

I wouldn’t say that it’s illogical to break the rules of this city. You already know how I feel about them—I feel still more obliged to break them in the name of the affection I have for you.

Chase chewed on the end of his pen again, trying to figure out how to put down what he was feeling. He wanted to make promises, because Kieran deserved them, but he had no idea if he would able to keep them.

I would not willingly leave. Although god knows I might, considering my aptitutude for pissing off the Masters of this city. I’m fairly certain it will result in my death at some point

Hmm. Perhaps he wouldn’t put that.

Suddenly I’m filled with rather fond memories of the ‘sexual part’, as you put it. Perhaps you should hold onto those memories—they may grant you pleasant dreams instead of the nightmares that have been plaguing you.

-C.M.R.

The letter did make him smile more, even blushing as he thought of Chase breaking the rules in order to honor their newly acknowledge feelings for one another. Kieran, interestingly enough, would break them as well to show Chase how much he did care for him.

Chase,

You are sweet, do you know this? I would honor such rebellion as I would do the same in return to show the fondness I have for you.

And, honestly, I wouldn’t willingly leave. We both know how terrible it is to have someone leave us behind. If you become distant, expect me to never back down but only enforce my feelings for you. I could never leave you behind like others have done in the past. It’d be terrible of me.

You’ve made me chuckle at your comment about the “sexual part” since I know I will always have those memories. I have tried, though, to use them but they manifest so quickly. I’ll have relief once I’m out of here permanently. I just need to get past it, open up myself to those I trust. Perhaps, from time to time, I can open up to you?

 - Kieran

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20
Sep
2014

Always On My Mind // Chase & Kieran

rutherfordchase:

Kieran,

Different reactions, same feelings. I don’t blush, unfortunately. I consider myself old enough and ugly enough and experienced with break-ups enough to have dispensed with blushing. But I crave closeness like you do.

But yes, I am hesitant. Because I jump into these things head first and wind up making the other person leave. (Or driving them to cheat, which has happened a few times).

At least his panic had eased. Chase almost laughed, because it was calming, talking about this so matter-of-factly with Kieran, dissecting it like was a lab specimen. Perhaps talking about this sort of thing was much easier with two scientific minds.

If I begged you to allow me to take this slowly, would you allow that? I don’t want to label what we have. I can’t make the promise that I would give you everything you want, because I can’t predict what the future holds for us in this city. But I want the closeness that you want to.

-C.M.R.

The letter was enough to ease Kieran’s aching heart, to let him know that Chase did return the feelings but in a far different way. Leaning more against the bar, he pressed his head against them in the direction of Chase as if to let the other know that he was thinking about him and wishing for him to be close.

Chase,

To have you so close would be a dream come true, darling. I know this is incredibly unconventional…our situation. We don’t need to label a thing but we can express our feelings in letters and other aspects. No one needs to justify this, not a soul has to take it from us. If you do find another, though, I won’t be upset. I’ll be hurt but I won’t cause a scene. I’m one who knows how to love and let go when it needs to happen…but I’d do anything to have your hand in mine until the end of time.

I won’t leave you, Chase, because men have always left me. I know how it feels, to have those you care for dump you repeatedly. It happened to me more than just twice. It’s been plenty.

You don’t need to beg, my darling, because I want to take things as slow as you. We’ve already gone past the sexual part. I can’t predict the future but we can only have our letters, the bookstore we met at, and many other places if we aren’t allowed to see one another. I know this is completely illogical to go against the rules of the city but to spend moments like we had in my bedroom and in our workspace…I’d go to the ends of the Universe and back for it.

 - Kieran

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20
Sep
2014

Always On My Mind // Chase & Kieran

rutherfordchase:

Waiting for the reply letter gave Chase time to calm down, at least. He didn’t manage to get his breathing completely back to normal, but it was better than the near-nothing he’d had before.

Kieran,

You spoke of feelings. They are reciprocated.

Because he had to be honest. Kieran deserved honesty, and he deserved to know that there was at least one person in the world that didn’t want to tear him down.

But you also spoke of wanting someone that can provide, and I cannot provide, in any sense of the word. I am a slave. A ‘rabid’ one, going by what the guards say of me. I cannot give you a home, nor safety, nor quality of life. I want the best for you, and it grieves me that I cannot provide it.

I have had many relationships, and I ruined them. I ruined the men that I was with, for they would have been better off had they never been with me. I don’t want to ruin you too.

And yet, I still want to spend time with you. I still want to hold your hand and get a headache as you speak of academics far above my level. Is that selfish of me? To know that I would be awful for you, and to want closeness still?

-C.M.R.

The letter brought a fond smile to Kieran’s expression but tears didn’t cease. Rubbing at his eyes, he thought over the letter and knew that his friend needed to be told to stop being a fool, that not everyone was the same. He cared about him and to help him realize that Kieran wasn’t going to give up on him. Not for a long shot, really.

Chase,

They are? When I smile in your direction, your heart pounds? When I hold your hand, you blush? I just want to make sure you are feeling this way…or feeling what I feel but with different reactions.

Don’t listen to those imbeciles, darling. You don’t need their approval. You taught me that I shouldn’t have to please every person in this world, that I should be able break a few rules now than then. You have shown me that I can be my own man and that there are those who appreciate my intelligence.

You may have had relationships fail in the past but that’s because those people gave up, I’m sure. I’m not a quitter, Chase. You’ve seen how I work and when I’m in a relationship, I know I’ll do everything I can to resolve all issues. I want to try at least, Chase.

It’s not selfish, not at all, because I want that with you. Your level of imagination is superior to my own and your ideas are magnificent. I want to be able to hold your hand like we had done many times before. I want to entwine our legs as we sleep in the same bed. Please, I want to try. I want a man to provide a life…and quite frankly, do you believe that what we’re doing is living? I don’t think so. I want a man to hold me as I hold him, to kiss me when I kiss him. I’m selfish, really, because I want all of those things but with a man who seems to be hesitant.

 - Kieran

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19
Sep
2014

Always On My Mind // Chase & Kieran

rutherfordchase:

For a long time, Chase just stared down at the letter, reading and re-reading it. First, Lorien had told him that he wanted to claim him. Now, Kieran was telling him he had feelings. Were both of them brain-dead? What stupidity had seized upon them to make them feel that way? Didn’t they realize that—

Chase vaguely realized that his heart was pounding hard enough to hurt, his breathing felt like he was trying to suck in air through a straw. Fuck. Panic attack. Not something he had often, but had had enough of to recognize them. And shit, he had to reply, because Kieran might take his lack of reply the wrong way, but he didn’t know how to reply, and, just, fuck.

K,

Why. You could do so much better.

-C

With so much time passing as Kieran waited, he felt his heart sink to his stomach and his eyes watering. He should have kept it to himself. He should have scratched everything up and started anew with the letter…but he sent it and there was nothing he could do about it. 

Though, as a letter flew into his cell, his eyes widened and he fought himself to not up and grab it like a needy teenager. Picking it up gently and hopefully not ripping it due to his trembling hands, he read the small response and Kieran knew he had to explain himself. Chase deserved that.

Chase,

Why? I just told you. You’re amazing to me. I don’t know what kind of relationships you’ve had in the past and I’m not asking you to have feelings for me in return. I just…I wanted you to know. I’m terrible with lies and always have been. I’m sure you have feelings for Lorien, I saw it the day we were rented together and even when we had to come back here to the cells.

And no, I couldn’t do better. Who would be better for me than a man who shares my interests and even considers me an Alpha Plus? I just can’t lie to you and say I don’t have feelings. They’re not love…but they’re a fondness and my heart races when I see you smile. I blush whenever you smile in my direction or hold my hand. I’m sure I’m a fool for telling you all this. But, to be fair, you’re just as much of a fool as I am if you haven’t seen why I feel this way about you.

 - Kieran

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19
Sep
2014

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19
Sep
2014

Always On My Mind // Chase & Kieran

rutherfordchase:

Blimey. That was a bit steep.

Chase rubbed a hand over his face, staring down at Kieran’s letter. Though he tried to act like he knew shit so that he could help other people, the truth was, he knew very little of love and happy relationships. He’d tried too many times, and it had never worked.

Kieran,

Bernard wasn’t the only decent Master in the city, you know. There’s others. Others that would be bloody lucky to have you.

Because what else, other than a Master—or, indeed, freedom—could Kieran be talking about? He said he needed the submission, which only a Master could provide.

When you find that provider, just promise you’ll still come visit, yeah? I’d miss you.

-C.M.R.

Kieran rolled his eyes at Chase’s blatant obliviousness to what he was trying to tell him. Well, the best way to tell someone you have developed feelings for them is to just…tell them.

Chase,

You oblivious fool…

I’m talking about you without you giving a name. I have feelings for you. I know I said that I need dominance and a firm hand but so far that hasn’t been working. I can always still have a Master, one to quiet my mind, but love…that’s far more potent. When I spent that time with you, I hadn’t felt so close and so intimate with a man around my caliber. You’re intelligent, handsome, witty, honest…everything that I have always wanted in a man. Sure, dominance came with that but feelings, I’m realizing, are stronger than some sort of sexual desire.

I would always come and see you, Chase, because I care about you and would miss your arms and your kisses. I’m sure this is strange to read but this is how I feel. And I know what you’re thinking…no this has nothing to do with my insomnia. This has to do with perfect honesty.

- Kieran

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19
Sep
2014

Always On My Mind // Chase & Kieran

rutherfordchase:

Kieran,

I won’t blow smoke up your arse and tell you that you’re capable of anything you want because you’re a genius. (But it’s tempting.)

Chase paused as he wrote, chewing on the end of his pen, trying to pick his words carefully. Thank God this was a written conversation—if he had to talk, he likely would have spoken without thinking and said something rather stupid, as he was usually wont to do.

But any psychologist would tell you that you’re already well on your way to dealing with your grief, in a way. Did you notice that your perfect future doesn’t include Bernard?

You can see a future without him, and that’s one of the stages of coping with grief. It’s tough, I know. But you’re seeing a way past your nightmares.

-C.M.R.

There was so much Kieran could tell his friend and colleague but he couldn’t. He knew he wasn’t in his right mind but he understood how he felt for the other. It wasn’t something that could be pursued. It was plainly obvious.

Chase,

I would never assume I could do anything. My mind’s the one telling me I can. I don’t want any of that, though, darling. I want to be happy and smile. I want…

Kieran paused at this moment, his eyes sparkling with tears as he tried to think of a way to bring this up to Chase.

I know my future is without him since I know he is unattainable. I want happiness…with someone who cares. I don’t see potential lovers in every man I come across. It’s illogical and childish to have hopes and dreams with every person I would come across. What I want is a life with someone I know I can love and trust with my everything. Do you know of anyone who could provide such a life?

 - Kieran

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